when one day you open your eyes wide
& look at all the things around you ,
the people you get to interact with ,
the different people you see , different
live people expect & how things work out .

its just a wonder , a wake up call .

how often do you really understand this by
'treasure what you've before its gone'?

when you lose a close family? a close friend?
then you feel the pinch in your heart ? & right
after few months it goes weeny poony missing
down the drain? this is just 60% the case right?
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i'd like to congras myself for finally waking up
getting to see the v horrible truth
how terrible i was , to family to friends & my boyfriend

i guess everyone was trying to tolerate me
i dont know why im so demanding so hard to communicate
etc im sorry i cant stand waiting for just a mere 5mins
im sorry i'd raise my voice if you guys just suddenly
had a change of plans & all . just damn , every sickening
things had to go my way , just w-h-a-t-e-v-e-r.

but i treasures my friends , my friendship
you give me a call 24/7
if its within my means it'd be glad if i can lend
a helping there , i'd always be there.

but still , i just lost a very close friend last yr..
nothing could prolly salvage the situation


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darling ,
there's just so much things to say
behind the picture ..

im sorry i did so much hurt to our relationship , & to you
there simply so much that you did for me , for us

& yet i just simply toring it into pieces everytime
i go berserk ): no words can express how bad i felt
now , today.. & sorry just isnt the word



no one can possibly understand that ours was a different kind of love
*hello mine isnt those i love you dear you heart me kind of thingy
i bet all my close friends knows what im talking about

i just need to change , i need a change .
just get to see a transform me soon ..

♥ 11:23 PM